The winding trails of twists and turns have kept me engaged; many times so much so that I couldn't spare an extra thought much less a post. There have been many happenings though, things I have wished to share: precious moments, triumphs, moments of weakness, learning lessons, revelations, among the usual day to day.
If the question has ever surfaced in minds yet to speak, I am doing well enough; I get by. Honestly, I do struggle, yes this path was never an easy one. I am so thankful for understanding and accepting friends and of course my 1 slash million, keeping me going all this time.
Lately I have had this deep longing to create and every now and then something will come on my Spoti or i will see something online and it sparks my creativity. Sadly, it starts and stops there. I can find the will to create but it is never enough to pick up that pencil, to boot up that program, to go buy the things I need to lay the groundwork. This is one of my issues I am seeking to work on; for I am a work in progress indeed. It is frustrating because I feel so close to it and yet so far away...
I'm honestly not sure where this post is going, I have no lessons to share or advice to give. I suppose this is just a soul streaming inner musings, bouncing thoughts out of head, granting them leave to become concrete and no longer fleeting. Thoughts unbound; and now forward I go. The next few steps are sure to be arduous, but: for my ideal, for my life, for my freedom I will press on.
