Wednesday, January 16, 2019

On Shadow's edge

Hello everyone,
It's been some time and i just wanted to apologize for not being consistent; whoever reads this, just know that i will make an attempt to keep content flowing as often as i can. Things get rough sometimes and sometimes i just get swept away in the currents of life.

Today, I wanna give you a draft I made; it was a dark moment where i was stressed out, angry, and desperate but one where I sat alone and thought to myself deeply about what is happening and what i can do. Believe it or not i am still working out the solutions but it was that moment i had that helped me find the clarity i needed. I'll leave you with that as i take you back to that moment 3 months ago.

Til next time!!
~Yuuseria~

>>> Briefly Today, I stared into the abyss. It was only for a moment; I am ashamed to say it just didn't seem so bad. It was literally just a blinking moment but it did happen; and I considered it. I guess I'm just unhappy I mean, I know I'm not where I wanna be in life... I try so hard to make moves and everytime I make a little progress, something conveniently comes in to knock me down. I'm just soooooo tired of being shit on after giving it my all...

I'm pretty sure there is more I could have done in the past and more i can do even now, but it just seems all so far away... and now im just moaning and complaining...

Let's be slightly rational here; the things that are upsetting me are mostly minute issues that separately wouldn't amount to much...but it's all of them all at once. Then there's a big glaring issue that I'm slowly working on; my lack of progress is just upsetting.

I heard a friend tell me something she heard from a former supervisor; great advice that drives her:
"Don't come with a problem unless you have a solution"

When she said that, it spoke to me. So then... what would be my solutions to these myriads of problems??

Sun's Persistance

So this would be my first post of the new year... unfortunately,my current mind frame nor location allows me to speak long lengths at the moment. For now, a short mantra:

It's not always Sunny
The clouds will roll on in
The rain may fall and storm but
The Sun will shine again

These words, beyond my current mood, echo and resonate within. Here's to hoping things turn around soon.

~Yuuseria~

The Path Forward Through Dancing Shadows

First off I am hurt. Offended and Hurt that such ignorant words would ever leave the lips of the one whom I once thought was one of my bigge...