"Sir" "Man" "Young Man" "He" "His" "Him" "Son" "Brother" "Bro" "bruh"
Looking in the mirror and seeing a male
Male hair growth and having to deal with it
Speaking and hearing a male
General feelings of Gender Dysphoria
Being called by a Deadname
Suppressing your true self at work, in front of family, in front of coworkers
Wanting to express your true self but fearing for your safety
Being considered too feminine among men but not feminine enough around women
Concerns about whether you are considered "feminine enough"
What even is considered "feminine enough"??
Constantly being questioned up front and behind turned backs about authenticity
Fearing that you will always be considered a lie
Constantly being compared to Ciswomen and feeling inadequate in comparison
Hating yourself for lying to yourself for years upon years
You say it was out of safety but you wonder if things would have been better if you hadn't "cop'ed out"
Having to spend everyday in a body that you know isn't you and wondering why or how this happened
Being Jealous of those born in their correct body
Feelings of anger and jealously when those same people complain about their bodies
Fearing that you will never be considered on the outside how you feel inside
Fears of Rejection and Disowning from your family
A deep sadness of the possibility of never seeing your family again
Being told who to be and how to be as a child while knowing those were lies; reaping the consequences of those lies and the truth as an adult
Wishing your body was born female like your soul was
Never being able to give your man a baby.
I think that one hurts the most.
~Yuuseria~
